Dear Baby Dickinson,
It is so difficult to keep quiet about you. I have never in my life been more excited about something, but I can't tell anybody yet. I keep telling your daddy, Cleo, Bentley, and Russ over and over again just so I can tell someone.
Today was your brother, Connor's, 11th birthday. He is actually your half-brother, but by the time you're old enough to read this you'll be old enough to already know and understand that. Your daddy never gets to spend his son's birthday with him, so I want you to help me with something. Let's make sure he ALWAYS gets to spend yours with you. Of course, this won't always be feasible when you are grown, but we'll make sure it happens until then. He longs for his child to want to spend time with him. I promise to help you see him for the incredible man he is. If you see that, then you'll always WANT to spend that time with him. Your daddy is really an amazing man, and I'd give anything for Connor to see the truth behind it all. Someday he will, though. He'll get old enough that he will figure it all out, and when he does I have a feeling he'll be wanting to spend a lot more time with us.
I talked to my friends Melissa Passini and Angela Wallace today, and I wanted to tell them about you so bad!! They have been SO supportive of me through this whole process, and I am dying to tell them that it has all come true.
I am counting down the days until I get to see you in an ultrasound. It can't get here soon enough!
If you are as far along as I think then you are about 0.63 inches long now. Your "tail" that is actually your spinal cord is disappearing as your spine forms. You are developing eyes and ears, and you have fingers & toes that are webbed.
I Love You!
Momma
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
It's Confirmed!
Dear Baby Dickinson,
This morning we went to our family doctor because they had to confirm the pregnancy before they could do our referral with our insurance to our OB/GYN. When the nurse confirmed it everything became more real. It still hasn't completely sunk in that you are growing inside me, but it's slowly getting there.
Later I just had to make a trip to Hobby Lobby to pick up some cute scrapbooking baby embellishments. I am so excited about scrapbooking everything about you. I had planned to already start, but tomorrow is Connor's 11th birthday. We're having a birthday party for him Friday night, so I have so much to do for that this week.
I weighed myself today and I was 125 lbs. That's 3 lbs. more than the last time I weighed myself about 2 months ago. Luckily I only had a slight headache today and felt great other than that. So far, so good!
I Love You!
Momma
This morning we went to our family doctor because they had to confirm the pregnancy before they could do our referral with our insurance to our OB/GYN. When the nurse confirmed it everything became more real. It still hasn't completely sunk in that you are growing inside me, but it's slowly getting there.
Later I just had to make a trip to Hobby Lobby to pick up some cute scrapbooking baby embellishments. I am so excited about scrapbooking everything about you. I had planned to already start, but tomorrow is Connor's 11th birthday. We're having a birthday party for him Friday night, so I have so much to do for that this week.
I weighed myself today and I was 125 lbs. That's 3 lbs. more than the last time I weighed myself about 2 months ago. Luckily I only had a slight headache today and felt great other than that. So far, so good!
I Love You!
Momma
Monday, April 23, 2012
Doctors
Dear Baby Dickinson,
Your daddy is so excited about you. It's so precious. He is dying to tell people. Finally today we agreed to tell his doctor at the VA, Dr. Goodwin, because we just had to share our excitement with somebody. We are waiting until we are far enough along that we feel you are safe before we share with anybody else, though. We want your brother, Connor, to be the first non-doctor person we tell. Then we want him to get to tell Nana, Papa, MawMaw, and Dandy. We can't get in to the doctor for an ultrasound until May 3rd, though. So we have to wait. It is so hard to keep something quiet that you've wanted so bad for so long. We just want to scream it from the mountaintops.
All the work you're doing inside my body is wearing me out, so I'm going to sleep.
I Love You!
Momma
Your daddy is so excited about you. It's so precious. He is dying to tell people. Finally today we agreed to tell his doctor at the VA, Dr. Goodwin, because we just had to share our excitement with somebody. We are waiting until we are far enough along that we feel you are safe before we share with anybody else, though. We want your brother, Connor, to be the first non-doctor person we tell. Then we want him to get to tell Nana, Papa, MawMaw, and Dandy. We can't get in to the doctor for an ultrasound until May 3rd, though. So we have to wait. It is so hard to keep something quiet that you've wanted so bad for so long. We just want to scream it from the mountaintops.
All the work you're doing inside my body is wearing me out, so I'm going to sleep.
I Love You!
Momma
Sunday, April 22, 2012
More Tests
Dear Baby Dickinson,
It's real! I took two more tests today, and they both came back positive! Now the question is whether we are 4 weeks or 8 weeks pregnant. I never got an LH surge this month (which tells me when I'm ovulating), so we don't think I ovulated. I tested for it every day, so I don't know how I could have missed it. That makes us wonder if I was pregnant from the month before and didn't know it. I'm going to call the doctor first thing in the morning. Hopefully we can get in soon to find out.
Today I had to deal with a headache. It kept getting worse and worse, and I knew I couldn't take anything for it. I don't know if the intensity of the headache caused my nausea and dizziness or if they were seperate. I've had nausea nearly every day for a couple of weeks, though. For awhile I thought I was getting the flu. Now we know better. :-)
I can't wait for tomorrow so I can find out when our first doctor appointment will be. I'm exhausted now, though, so I'm going to sleep. I Love You!
Momma
P. S. Your daddy is so excited! He's been talking to my belly all day! :-)
It's real! I took two more tests today, and they both came back positive! Now the question is whether we are 4 weeks or 8 weeks pregnant. I never got an LH surge this month (which tells me when I'm ovulating), so we don't think I ovulated. I tested for it every day, so I don't know how I could have missed it. That makes us wonder if I was pregnant from the month before and didn't know it. I'm going to call the doctor first thing in the morning. Hopefully we can get in soon to find out.
Today I had to deal with a headache. It kept getting worse and worse, and I knew I couldn't take anything for it. I don't know if the intensity of the headache caused my nausea and dizziness or if they were seperate. I've had nausea nearly every day for a couple of weeks, though. For awhile I thought I was getting the flu. Now we know better. :-)
I can't wait for tomorrow so I can find out when our first doctor appointment will be. I'm exhausted now, though, so I'm going to sleep. I Love You!
Momma
P. S. Your daddy is so excited! He's been talking to my belly all day! :-)
Saturday, April 21, 2012
BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!!!
Dear Baby Dickinson,
I can't believe it!! My lifelong dream is finally coming true! Your daddy and I began trying for you in March 2010. Over two years later we have finally found out you are coming. Your nana predicted it today. She is a smart lady... but she has no clue how smart yet. Today your daddy and I sold our Crownline speed boat. We took it to have it dewinterized before delivering it to the buyer. We looked at pontoons while we were there, and we decided we would make it a goal to have one by the time our youngest child was two. I texted nana to tell her about our goal, and somehow she thought that meant I'm pregnant. She's been saying for a couple of weeks now that she thinks I am. For some reason tonight I took an EPT pregnancy test. It looked positive. I couldn't contain my excitement, so I told your daddy. He was excited but scared to trust it based on one test. We've had so many ups and downs through our trying to conceive (TTC) journey, so it was difficult to believe. We decided to go to Wal-Mart to get a digital test. We bought Clear Blue Digital. It came with 2 tests, so when we got home I decided to go ahead and take one then and one the next morning. That test very clearly read:
Your daddy and I both cried with joy. We couldn't believe it, yet at the same time we finally did. I am going to take another test in the morning just to get a greater confirmation. Then I will begin working on your scrapbook (after church, of course).
I love you already! You are in my belly! I can't believe it! You are really there! This is really happening! I have never been mroe excited about something in my life!
Love,
Momma
I can't believe it!! My lifelong dream is finally coming true! Your daddy and I began trying for you in March 2010. Over two years later we have finally found out you are coming. Your nana predicted it today. She is a smart lady... but she has no clue how smart yet. Today your daddy and I sold our Crownline speed boat. We took it to have it dewinterized before delivering it to the buyer. We looked at pontoons while we were there, and we decided we would make it a goal to have one by the time our youngest child was two. I texted nana to tell her about our goal, and somehow she thought that meant I'm pregnant. She's been saying for a couple of weeks now that she thinks I am. For some reason tonight I took an EPT pregnancy test. It looked positive. I couldn't contain my excitement, so I told your daddy. He was excited but scared to trust it based on one test. We've had so many ups and downs through our trying to conceive (TTC) journey, so it was difficult to believe. We decided to go to Wal-Mart to get a digital test. We bought Clear Blue Digital. It came with 2 tests, so when we got home I decided to go ahead and take one then and one the next morning. That test very clearly read:
PREGNANT
Your daddy and I both cried with joy. We couldn't believe it, yet at the same time we finally did. I am going to take another test in the morning just to get a greater confirmation. Then I will begin working on your scrapbook (after church, of course).
I love you already! You are in my belly! I can't believe it! You are really there! This is really happening! I have never been mroe excited about something in my life!
Love,
Momma
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Natural Methods
Dear Baby Dickinson,
We're now on our 25th month of trying for you. We're going to skip the IUI this month because we just have too much pressure, but I have another plan. We're going to try natural methods, but I plan to mix it up a little in how we do it. I'll explain that some other day if it works. On a similar note, though, I have another big change I will be making. I have been gradually switching to organic and natural food and products for good health, but I'm now looking into going a little more extreme with it for infertility purposes. We'll see how it goes. It definitely can't hurt. I have a place on my main blog for natural health, so hopefully I fill it full of awesome ideas.
Your daddy and I have both found that every part of life is exceptionally difficult when we have to live it without you. I needed a break from everything one day because I was getting too stressed. I decided to go do a little window shopping. Apparently I didn't get the memo that every pregnant woman or new mother with her new baby was suppose to shop that day. I honestly think I saw a total of two people in target who were not either pregnant or with a baby. I came home, and your daddy and I decided to just curl up and watch a tv show together to get our minds off it. Low and behold... the show was about someone who was pregnant. So we switched channels to something that we knew wouldn't have babies related to it. After watching it for about 10 minutes one of the characters found out she was pregnant. We switched to DIY network, and the homeowners of the show were expecting a baby. I got on facebook, and there are far too many of my friends who are currently pregnant. We finally gave up and went to bed.
Yesterday one of my inspirations had a baby. Hopefully you will meet her son someday. She and her husband tried for 2 1/2 years before finally getting pregnant. We're closing in on them. It took them three IUI's to get pregnant, but it finally happened. She has guided me through so much of the process because she was almost a year ahead of me on it. She has continued to be my rock through everything. I hope to experience someday the feeling she got to experience yesterday by holding her child for the first time.
With all my heart,
Momma
We're now on our 25th month of trying for you. We're going to skip the IUI this month because we just have too much pressure, but I have another plan. We're going to try natural methods, but I plan to mix it up a little in how we do it. I'll explain that some other day if it works. On a similar note, though, I have another big change I will be making. I have been gradually switching to organic and natural food and products for good health, but I'm now looking into going a little more extreme with it for infertility purposes. We'll see how it goes. It definitely can't hurt. I have a place on my main blog for natural health, so hopefully I fill it full of awesome ideas.
Your daddy and I have both found that every part of life is exceptionally difficult when we have to live it without you. I needed a break from everything one day because I was getting too stressed. I decided to go do a little window shopping. Apparently I didn't get the memo that every pregnant woman or new mother with her new baby was suppose to shop that day. I honestly think I saw a total of two people in target who were not either pregnant or with a baby. I came home, and your daddy and I decided to just curl up and watch a tv show together to get our minds off it. Low and behold... the show was about someone who was pregnant. So we switched channels to something that we knew wouldn't have babies related to it. After watching it for about 10 minutes one of the characters found out she was pregnant. We switched to DIY network, and the homeowners of the show were expecting a baby. I got on facebook, and there are far too many of my friends who are currently pregnant. We finally gave up and went to bed.
Yesterday one of my inspirations had a baby. Hopefully you will meet her son someday. She and her husband tried for 2 1/2 years before finally getting pregnant. We're closing in on them. It took them three IUI's to get pregnant, but it finally happened. She has guided me through so much of the process because she was almost a year ahead of me on it. She has continued to be my rock through everything. I hope to experience someday the feeling she got to experience yesterday by holding her child for the first time.
With all my heart,
Momma
Thursday, February 23, 2012
February
Dear Baby Dickinson,
There have been so many times I have wanted to write you lately, but I just haven't really known how to say what it is I want to say. I'm a writer. I do it for a living. Yet I still couldn't put anything into words. I'll catch you up on the technical stuff, though. This month was our second attempt for an IUI. Unfortunately, this month didn't work for it either. Your daddy and I were both extremely upset that we had another month with difficulties just being able to do an IUI. We feel positive about our chances of creating you with one if we can just do it, but it's not working for us. After spending about two days feeling extremely down in the dumps we decided our next plan of attack. We are going to skip next month as far as insemination goes. We're not even going to try it. We will plan to do a month of natural methods in an attempt to relieve some of the pressure we feel right now. If we still don't have you on the way by then, we'll likely attempt IUI the following month. We'll just have to play it by ear.
Last weekend we kept your cousin Jaxon. It was so much fun, and it only made me want you more. He is so funny. You will love him, and he will love you! Your Aunt Tara and Nucle Jeremy are considering moving down here near us, so we're hoping that happens. If it does then you will get to spend a lot of time with Jax.
Your Nana and Papa are so ready for you to come along. Nana keeps doing everything she can to help us gather more information and figure out ways to make you happen.
I just finished my school work for the night, and I am going to bed. I will keep you updated as things progress.
With all my heart,
Momma
There have been so many times I have wanted to write you lately, but I just haven't really known how to say what it is I want to say. I'm a writer. I do it for a living. Yet I still couldn't put anything into words. I'll catch you up on the technical stuff, though. This month was our second attempt for an IUI. Unfortunately, this month didn't work for it either. Your daddy and I were both extremely upset that we had another month with difficulties just being able to do an IUI. We feel positive about our chances of creating you with one if we can just do it, but it's not working for us. After spending about two days feeling extremely down in the dumps we decided our next plan of attack. We are going to skip next month as far as insemination goes. We're not even going to try it. We will plan to do a month of natural methods in an attempt to relieve some of the pressure we feel right now. If we still don't have you on the way by then, we'll likely attempt IUI the following month. We'll just have to play it by ear.
Last weekend we kept your cousin Jaxon. It was so much fun, and it only made me want you more. He is so funny. You will love him, and he will love you! Your Aunt Tara and Nucle Jeremy are considering moving down here near us, so we're hoping that happens. If it does then you will get to spend a lot of time with Jax.
Your Nana and Papa are so ready for you to come along. Nana keeps doing everything she can to help us gather more information and figure out ways to make you happen.
I just finished my school work for the night, and I am going to bed. I will keep you updated as things progress.
With all my heart,
Momma
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